ni hao and dank je.
also known as "because i once made the mistake of thinking that keeping quiet was the proper and right thing to do".*
while i may indulge in a bit of ranting and shameful emo (i wish i didn't feel like a pre-teen indie rocker wannabe everytime i use this word) moments every now and then, i think it's pretty obvious that most of what you get here is superficial fluff (how much could i write about chocolates? oh, sweetie, let me count the ways). i don't have any profound thoughts on anything, i'm not really one to delve into the nitty-gritty, and (i hope) i know better than to share everything that goes on with my life.
that being said, i must admit to still feeling a bit discomfited when i had an inkling that both of you visit me here. we can't exactly be described as friends, after all. and unlike strangers who meet and become online chums, we DO share more than blog links and YM contacts.
but i've thought about it and i've decided that there's really no need for me to be bothered. i'm pretty sure that we all agree that whatever we had gone through together is better left and buried like the undesirable thing that it is. which is not to say that we should be forgetting. oh, dear me, no. as much as it galls me to think of how stupid i was, to completely forget and pretend like no harm's been done would be, i believe, even more foolish.
i'd like to think i'm THAT entertaining and that boredom, and perhaps a little bit of curiosity, have led you here, but even i bore myself so i don't know. if you come here because you feel like asking me some questions which may be bothering you still (i think both of you know how to reach me?), depend on me to give you straight facts. if you're here because of other reasons, like, say, you resent and hate me, well, i can't very well stop you from disliking me. god knows i believed i had reason to feel the same towards you and i did for the longest time. but there is much to be said about recognizing and accepting the truth and using it to your advantage, and since i think that all three of us, in one way or another, have done a lot towards accomplishing just that, it'll be a shame to waste even another thought on something that, as much as we valued it at one point, is undeniably unworthy of even another second of our time. i may be unsure about a lot of things, but i think i'm on the mark with this one.
in any case, thanks for dropping by, feel free to look around and come again if you wish.
just to warn you, though, i wasn't kidding about the chocolates. i COULD go on forever about them.
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*ETA: i almost used "ni hao and dank je" as a title, but decided not to. i thought i'd go straight to the point for a change. :)
while i may indulge in a bit of ranting and shameful emo (i wish i didn't feel like a pre-teen indie rocker wannabe everytime i use this word) moments every now and then, i think it's pretty obvious that most of what you get here is superficial fluff (how much could i write about chocolates? oh, sweetie, let me count the ways). i don't have any profound thoughts on anything, i'm not really one to delve into the nitty-gritty, and (i hope) i know better than to share everything that goes on with my life.
that being said, i must admit to still feeling a bit discomfited when i had an inkling that both of you visit me here. we can't exactly be described as friends, after all. and unlike strangers who meet and become online chums, we DO share more than blog links and YM contacts.
but i've thought about it and i've decided that there's really no need for me to be bothered. i'm pretty sure that we all agree that whatever we had gone through together is better left and buried like the undesirable thing that it is. which is not to say that we should be forgetting. oh, dear me, no. as much as it galls me to think of how stupid i was, to completely forget and pretend like no harm's been done would be, i believe, even more foolish.
i'd like to think i'm THAT entertaining and that boredom, and perhaps a little bit of curiosity, have led you here, but even i bore myself so i don't know. if you come here because you feel like asking me some questions which may be bothering you still (i think both of you know how to reach me?), depend on me to give you straight facts. if you're here because of other reasons, like, say, you resent and hate me, well, i can't very well stop you from disliking me. god knows i believed i had reason to feel the same towards you and i did for the longest time. but there is much to be said about recognizing and accepting the truth and using it to your advantage, and since i think that all three of us, in one way or another, have done a lot towards accomplishing just that, it'll be a shame to waste even another thought on something that, as much as we valued it at one point, is undeniably unworthy of even another second of our time. i may be unsure about a lot of things, but i think i'm on the mark with this one.
in any case, thanks for dropping by, feel free to look around and come again if you wish.
just to warn you, though, i wasn't kidding about the chocolates. i COULD go on forever about them.
...
*ETA: i almost used "ni hao and dank je" as a title, but decided not to. i thought i'd go straight to the point for a change. :)
ETA, part 2: i felt like doing it after all.
