if everybody's predictions do come true and i DO end up as that crazy lady you see muttering to herself while the doves shit on her, go through my broken-down shopping cart of belongings and you'll find a pair of shorts that i've had since i was 10, movie stubs of harry potter I-IV and the LOR trilogy, a bunch of papers that served as my diary (i never got around to writing them in a proper journal), an envelope of my most favorite sanrio stationery (a remnant of that time when there was only one gift gate and getting your hands on anything with hello kitty was akin to finding the holy grail), palanca letters from high school, my barbie figurine-panini sticker album, drafts of my old evals, and a whole lot of other items which i, pack rat that i am, have somehow managed to keep all these years.
i realize how pointless it is to hold onto things which just take up valuable space and are of no imminent use to anyone anymore (except for the shorts, which i wear when i have to paint fences or scrub windows or some other chore that sounds as horribly domesticated), but everytime i try to throw them out, i find all sorts of excuses to put the purging off.
i feel the same about friendships.
even if i know that we experience more awkwardness and stress than enjoyment each time we find ourselves conversing with each other, even if i don't agree with what you do or say, even if i may not like you very much, even if i know YOU don't like me very much, this weird sense of loyalty prevents me from breaking all ties and saying goodbye.
one of these days, i'll learn how to do the right thing without feeling sad. until then, i'll be thankful that some people are not as silly and ridiculously sentimental as i am, and actually know when to let go of friendships that don't seem to be worthy of being kept anymore.
i realize how pointless it is to hold onto things which just take up valuable space and are of no imminent use to anyone anymore (except for the shorts, which i wear when i have to paint fences or scrub windows or some other chore that sounds as horribly domesticated), but everytime i try to throw them out, i find all sorts of excuses to put the purging off.
i feel the same about friendships.
even if i know that we experience more awkwardness and stress than enjoyment each time we find ourselves conversing with each other, even if i don't agree with what you do or say, even if i may not like you very much, even if i know YOU don't like me very much, this weird sense of loyalty prevents me from breaking all ties and saying goodbye.
one of these days, i'll learn how to do the right thing without feeling sad. until then, i'll be thankful that some people are not as silly and ridiculously sentimental as i am, and actually know when to let go of friendships that don't seem to be worthy of being kept anymore.
